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Showing posts with label Personal Stuff. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal Stuff. Show all posts

Saturday, August 6, 2016

Psychoeducation: Preschool

This hand written letter (which I have copied word for word) predates my entry into Orchard Dale Elementary by two years. It appears to be penned by my maternal grandmother, Allene. It paints a clearer picture of my childhood emotional state. I previously assumed the problems to have begun in elementary school. In fact, my wave of destruction began much sooner. For example, I drove a car into my grandmother’s house at the age of two.

Saturday, July 30, 2016

Psychoeducation: The Diagnostic Center

In January of 1991, I began attending The Diagnostic Center in Los Angeles, and thus, the Rossier School chapter came to a close. I wrote at length about this time in my life for Nintendo Rhapsody. It may not have been my first encounter with Nintendo, but it was certainly quite impressionable. When given the opportunity to spend time with the NES in the recreation room, I could easily find myself so entranced I would, for a brief moment, forget I was living away from home. My memory of the actual school environment at The Diagnostic Center remains a bit fuzzy, but some of the reports I have discovered may shed some light on the subject. This is a very much abridged version, by the way. There are twenty pages of mostly boring, deeply versed statistics. "This thing reads like stereo instructions!"

Friday, April 1, 2016

Psychoeducation: The Second First Grade

In May of 1989, my time at Orchard Dale Elementary came to an abrupt end. I was placed in a non-public school known as Rossier. My memory of this school is also a bit fuzzy, but I do remember some things here and there. I remember carrying a float back from an event in the gymnasium, the wind blowing it from my arms, and trying desperately to retrieve the scattered pieces from the field where I was suddenly ambushed by a group of students on the playground. I curled into a ball and they proceeded to kick at me until they grew tired of this activity. I then walked back to class, empty handed. I learned about karma that day. It was not very nice. I also remember stretching my arms backward while sitting at my desk one day, pencil in hand, when I managed to stab the teaching assistant. Until this very day, I feel as though it was an accident, but they took it very seriously. Below are a set of generalized reports from April 30th, 1990. At present, there do not appear to be any specific incident reports from Rossier.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Psychoeducation: The First Grade

I recently discovered my IEP papers from elementary school and was quite shocked by some of the things I found. I was always a relatively average child according to everyone I knew and spoke to, but as I entered Kindergarten and then Grade 1, I began to exhibit serious emotional problems. I have very few memories from this time, but I do recall being reminded by my parents of a few incidents. One of which left a custodian hospitalized. The following stories come from the staff of Orchard Dale Elementary the month of and month following Easter, 1989. I was six years old. I must warn everyone, it is quite intense!

I am sharing these stories in an effort to show I have nothing to hide. I made some serious mistakes as a child, more severe than most children, but I am certainly not the only one who ever gave in to impulsive actions or judged others before they knew all the facts. If we are to truly become better people, we need to focus on the strengths of others, not their weaknesses. I wish I could comfort the people in these stories. Chances are, however, they would not remember me. It was twenty-seven years ago, after all.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Tributes Live Forever (Ancestry with the Haleys - Progress Report #2.5)

When it comes to personal tributes, I am certainly no stranger. In March of 2009, my cat of 14 years passed away, and to commemorate his life, I put together a somewhat elaborate two part photo tribute tied to graphics and sound. That same year, my dad was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer, and within just weeks of that diagnosis, he too passed away. It was the hardest thing I ever had to deal with, and to this day, I feel that a part of me is still missing. That is why, in 2010, I began a video anthology series titled "...with the Haleys." Its aim, to collect some of my fondest memories of my dad in video; for myself, for my family, for anyone else that knew him, and for those that may not have had a chance to know him. Working on these videos, I have always felt an eerie sense, as if my dad is right there with me. It is why I continue to feel passionate about these projects. From Merry Christmas from the Haleys to Disneyland with the Haleys to Nintendo with the Haleys, it is like writing a beautiful sonnet that which echoes across time. It is my firm hope that others receive at least half as much enjoyment watching them as I do making them.

Disneyland with the Haleys

Nintendo with the Haleys

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Gabriel Night

On November 12th, 195...2010, I took my bicycle for a ride alongside the San Gabriel River. Beside the river is a cemented bike trail which stretches to the Pacific Ocean (Seal Beach). Having few daylight hours to spare, and being my first time on the trail, I did not see the trip through to completion, but this story is not about that.

On the way back, I discovered a black kitten. I find that animals are always a source of joy, so I decided to stop and visit with the little guy. I approached him very slowly, and after he realized that I was not a threat, he rubbed against my pant leg. I did not have any food to give him, but I did have some water.

I was all set to leave when he started following me. He must have followed me for a good quarter mile before I put two and two together, and realized that he was homeless. He had no name tags, and from the looks of it, was very malnourished. I questioned a few people that passed by on the trail, but nobody seemed to know anything about him.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

A Message for Dad

At 4:40 PM yesterday afternoon, my Dad passed away in a Hospice bed with all but one of his children by his side. My younger brother, Steven, was unable to be there. He was simply too emotionally overwhelmed by the situation.

A little background: My Dad was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer (Stage IV) on Wednesday, September 30th. For a month (or so) prior, he began to experience abdominal pains, followed by a loss of appetite. He was admitted to the hospital on September 22nd (his birthday), where they did a number of tests, including a colonoscopy, CT scan, and finally a liver biopsy. They discovered a growth, and when the results came back, it was not good. The cancer had already spread to his liver.

Dad is survived by a wife, seven children (not all from the same marriage), a sister, two brothers, and too many grandchildren to count. He will be missed by all.

Paul W. Haley
September 22nd, 1946 - October 12th, 2009